In Pursuit of Peace

What is love?

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I am a grandma!  My mind screams out in disbelief saying, “This is not possible!” while my heart says, “You’d better believe it, because this thing is real.” 

At 47 years old, I feel like I’m just now reaching the prime of my life, I finally have the freedom that I’ve longed for since childhood, to do what I want, when I want to do it.  I’ve finally reached a stage in my life where I can embrace being an adult.  I LOVE IT! And now, all of a sudden, there’s yet another something new in my life.  Whoever said there is nothing new under the sun, was way off base.  The poor soul.  Every day is new and there is most definitely something wonderful and new every time you open your eyes. God said, “Behold, I will do a new thing, now it shall spring forth; shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.” (Isaiah 43:19).  New is wonderful!

This whole grandma thing, while I’ve known it was coming for about 9 months, has taken me totally by surprise.  My friends all told me that being a grandma was the best thing ever.  They celebrated with me in my joy over the prospects of having a grandchild, and consoled me through the fears and uncertainty for my own child … this precious baby’s mother.  Through it all though, every one of them promised me that my life was about to change forever.  They were right!

Back in my 20’s, I thought life was good.  I had watched my sister have three girls. I watched how she struggled with the demands of motherhood with three small children and had determined that motherhood was not my calling.  My life was pretty good in my own estimation.  I was an adult.  I had a decent job.  I could come and go as I pleased.  I could do whatever I wanted and not answer to anyone for it.  I was living the good life.

Thankfully, and by His grace, God had another plan for me.  In a moment of carelessness, I succumbed to what I thought was true love, and God gave me a beautiful, perfectly wonderful child (Psalm 13:13-14), my daughter. 

My daughter and me on Mother’s Day

The moment she was born, everything changed.  This little tiny human whom had emerged from within my body, brought a large piece of my heart out with her.  My new normal was trying to keep my heart alive while watching it live outside of my body … forever!  Terrifying!  Yet, so rewarding.  These 20+ years have been the best years of my life, even through seasons of pain and great loss, nothing else can compare.

I cannot imagine how empty and barren my life would have been without my daughter in it.  I thought I knew what love was all those years ago.  After all, I had a strong relationship with my own parents, and with my aunts, and my cousins, and my friends.  We loved each other deeply and spent as much time as we could together.  Yes, I had love, but looking back now, nothing that could compare to the love I have for my own child and the love that she has for me in return.  Without her, I would have gone through life never knowing what it meant to love another human to the point of sacrifice.  She was the one that caused me to realize that I would indeed lay down my life for another human being. Before my daughter, I may have considered it for a select few people, but for the most part, the love that I knew was just surface deep, it was relational. 

When I became a mom, it changed everything.  Love changed; and relational was no longer good enough, it was no longer fulfilling.  How sad that I would have missed it all had God not intervened and gave me His best, in spite of what I thought I wanted.

It brings to life the Word of God when He tells us that we love because He first loved us (1 John 4:19).  I knew the love I had for my mother, but I could not fathom, in my wildest imagination, the love that she first had for me – until I was a mother, and had that love for my own child.  Imagine, if you can, the love that the Father must have toward us.  If we are capable of this kind of soul piercing love for one another, how much more is the love of the Father?  How much love does it take to offer your only begotten Son (John 3:16), to redeem all of mankind from the evil one … regardless of whether they will return that love?  We will probably never understand until we get to Heaven.  Thank God, we don’t have to understand it in order to receive it.

Fast forward to today.  As I sit and sip my coffee thinking about this absolutely perfect little boy who came into this world just 13 days ago, I remember.  I am feeling all the joy and love and fear that I felt those 20 years ago when my own baby girl was born, only now it is magnified 1000 times over.  This little tiny human now holds an even bigger piece of my heart – the piece his mommy holds plus another piece just for him … and he has NO IDEA!  It’s beautiful, and amazing, and inspiring, and quite frankly terrifying that this sweet boy holds so much power over me simply by the coo of his voice or the wiggling of this fingers.

My sweet grandson

I have no doubt that I have many new experiences and revelations yet to discover in my life here in this world.  But THIS thing, this little tiny boy who will grow up calling me Gigi, is the most amazing thing ever.  Who knew, that when your heart is as full as it can possibly be with love for another, that it could STILL make room for more love?  I’ve learned in the last 13 days that we simply cannot exceed the capacity of our hearts when it comes to love.  How can this be?  I have no idea and the words to explain it escape me anyway, but it is … it just is!  I believe it’s yet another miracle from the God of miracles. 

I pray many blessings, much peace, and unconditional love to each and every one of you.

Love ya’ll.

Hugs, Trixie

Growing in Faith

Who will be victorious? You decide!

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I’m writing today primarily to my friends in the U.S., but not exclusively.  No matter where you are in the world, you can change your community too, so please feel free to stay and read. I make it a point not to be political on this page, and I’m not changing that now.  I’m simply writing to remind all of us that, as Christians, our citizenship is in Heaven.  We are only here for a season, but while we are here, we must also remember that there is only one who can heal our land and restore our country.  

Social media is buzzing after Monday night’s Presidential debate.  The two sides came out spitting – no, not the candidates – their supporters.  Friends, I submit to you for your consideration that neither of these two candidates are our savior.  Both of them are completely incapable of saving this country. They are only human.  Neither of these two candidates, nor the other two who were not invited to the debate stage, are physically or mentally capable of anything more than any of the rest of us.  

Everywhere I go, I hear people talking about how bad things are and how evil people are becoming. Friends, the enemy knows his time is almost up. His goal is to stir up as much strife and fear and trouble in this world as he possibly can. He is a liar and there is no truth in him (John 8:44). We, as God’s people, are tasked to stand up against him and refuse to fear. Do not let the lies of the devil shake you. Do not be moved by what you see.

Our God is greater than any need in this world.

He is greater than any government in this world.

He is greater than any evil in this world. Continue Reading


Homemade Sports Drinks

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I don’t know about your family, but mine is ALWAYS thirsty.  We stopped buying soda a couple of years ago in an effort to 1.) encourage healthier beverage choices, and 2.) reign in our ridiculously high grocery budget. After the “soda strike” I found myself buying way too many sports drinks.  While these are a slightly healthier option than soda, they are not such a great choice for the budget.  My family can go through an 8-pack of sports drinks in one weekend and that stuff is expensive!  I knew there had to be a better way but I had no idea what the better way would be until I stumbled upon this post at “One Good Thing by Jillee”.

Enough about the “why’s” though – Let’s get to the doing.  I’ve made this sports drink several times for my family and they love it!  The ingredient list is short which makes me love it too.  🙂 Continue Reading

Growing in Faith

Could Your Giving be Disobedience?

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Could Your Giving be Disobedience?


Giving to those less fortunate seems almost “trendy” these days.  In the age of social media, we’re not hard pressed to find a feel-good story with thousands of shares or a crowd-sourcing site set up for someone who’s found themselves caught up in less than ideal circumstances.  I don’t think there’s a single thing wrong with any of these things and I doubt that God would find a reason to frown upon them either. 

There was a viral story recently about a boy who asked a gentleman if he could help him carry his groceries in exchange for some donuts; and humanity came through for this boy and his disabled mother in a BIG way.  There are also great stories floating around about paying the tolls for the car behind you at the toll-booth, or paying for the coffee of the driver behind you at the drive-thru, and even buying lunch for law officers to say thank you (which I highly recommend).  Even Pinterest has countless ideas for “blessing bags” for the homeless. There are even free printable cards available to add to the bags.

All of these are wonderful ways to give and be blessed in the giving, and I have no doubt that each of these instances gives just a little bit of hope, or at least a little pick-me-up, to the recipients of these acts of kindness.

BUT …. Are you giving obediently?  Are Blessing Bags what God told you to do? Continue Reading

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How to Be Happy in One Easy Step!

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There is something I have learned over the past few years and life is good because of it. Yes, it took me a while to understand in my heart, and I paid the price of depression, anxiety, and discontent.  I finally learned the secret of how to be happy!  What is it, you ask? 

My life changing revelation was this:  A thing is only offensive if you take offense to it!

Does that mean that all is right with the world? No. Does that mean that we shouldn’t be passionate about things? No. What it does mean is that if we see or hear something that sparks an emotion in us, we need to stop right there and evaluate that emotion.  Just; whatever you do, do not put on the armor of offense!  That’s it – one easy step to happiness! (Ok, I’ll admit, it might be easier said than done – but it CAN be done.)

How to be Happy in one easy step!

If it is anything negative, we have a choice. We can consciously choose to let it go from within ourselves and follow the advice Jesus gives in Philippians 4:8 [AMP] ~ “For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them].”  We must choose to direct our thoughts to things that are good! Continue Reading