I’m gonna be real with you, friends. Right here, right now……….
I am terrified to post anything on this blog!
There, I said it!
I thought it would be this huge weight lifted off my shoulders, but I guess not. Haha. That being said, I’m just going to write what I feel like pouring out and hope that it helps someone, somewhere along the way.
I’ve been reading and studying and reading some more about how to be a successful blogger, and you know what? None of that has helped. The sum total of everything that all that research did for me was to make me feel more insecure and inferior to all the other million bloggers out there.
Apparently, I’m supposed to have a niche that my blog will fit nicely into, with no ragged edges. That’s not going to happen.
They say that I need to find my passion and write about that. Well, my passion is about life and learning to live it joyfully – even in the hard parts – so I don’t think that will fit into any tidy little box either.
They say I should “find my awesome” and write about that; while at the same time, telling me that my awesome has to fit into a pre-defined parameter. How could that possibly be awesome? By very definition, awesome is to be uniquely incredible, marvelous, outstanding, etc. That doesn’t sound like something that would fit into a tidy little box to me.
I want to be awesome for you, not so you’ll think I’m awesome; but so you can be even more awesome than you already are.
Let me just insert a little disclaimer right here, too. I am not an authority on anything. I know a little bit about a lot of things, but I am a master of NONE of them. When I say that I am learning to live life joyfully, that means that it is a process that I am wandering through Every. Single. Day.
Frankly, I don’t know why I’m surprised that I don’t fit into a box. I’ve NEVER fit into a box. Pretty much from the time I started elementary school in the mid-70’s – all the way to present day, I’ve been an independent thinker (and do-er) much to the chagrin of many who were in authority positions over me. (Don’t tell anyone, but it’s always been somewhat of a source of entertainment for me to push the envelope just a little bit) 😉
I enjoy pushing down the road less traveled to find a new method or to expand my way of thinking, which, coincidentally, doesn’t always end well; but it’s the journey, right?
I set this website up in August of 2013 and since then, I’ve been just absolutely paralyzed over it. I want to do well for you, and for me. I don’t want to sell either of us short. I wanted to make sure that I was doing everything exactly by the book. I wanted to do it right. It’s taken me this long to get a hold of myself and get a grip on reality. If I’m doing something “by the book” and not letting my heart dictate what to say or do; then I’m not being who I am. I couldn’t blame a single solitary person for not wanting to read a “fake” blog. So, in a nutshell, this blog is going to be a lot like some long running hit TV shows from the past. A blog about nothing in particular; and life, in general. I sincerely hope you will join me on this journey.